This morning saw the end of an era when I attended my last CSG (counselling supervision group) with my Relate colleagues.
If I am honest I went to the meeting with a little trepidation because although in the past I have been able to walk away from groups for me saying goodbye properly is a much more difficult proposition.
The meeting itself was really no different to previous ones except for the chocolate cake which was on display and we used the session as appropriate to discuss various cases. It was a lively meeting and everyone seemed connected and supportive of each other. But then I was asked how I felt about leaving and I felt unable to say, not only that I didn't really know. I shared the positives on my horizon for example my blog and my hopes for it in the future but I was unable, to access the negatives around my ending. However, when I thought about it this is quite a normal response for me. I typically deal with a crisis and have my breakdown later. Let's hope when the time is right I don't actually come apart at the seams?
Anyway if I felt unable to feel or share sadness my colleagues made up for it and amidst the laughter there were tears. We haven't arranged a leaving do as such but have agreed to combine it with the Xmas party and so I get the opportunity to meet up with these lovely people again. I left them today with a superb bouquet and a brilliant card and acknowledging that this was the end of an era.